so this is how i started to write somewhat.dont mind the grammatical mistakes and horrible flow of the writing.its kind of what i wrote when i faced extreme depression in the end of 2016 and wrote this down out of my pain in my dairy.be patient when reading it completely:
Saturday,17th december 2016 "it's the end of the year and i presumingly have won but yet i'm sad..."
"i've regained or am starting to regain my childish self"
"it's funny...i'm getting mental again....i've decreased my male hormones somewhat....as a self defense cause i dont want to feel anything anymore...."
"I've sinned...i've did things by trying to grow up yet it hurts....it HURTS SO MUCH!!!"
"I can't get into anime anymore"
"I've lost my aggressiveness and assertiveness"
"I'm at that socially awkward level where i used to make a fool out of myself as a kid....i'm losing something"
"I've gained tremendous powers a while ago and now i've gotten rid of them"
"Funny isn't it...it's pathetic...it's like i'm losing my existence"
"Why do i feel empty?..."
"it's like i don't feel anything...."
(and this is where things sort of take an leaping turn as my writing style bloomed after ages)
"I Don't want to forget..."
"Of all that i had gone through by the means of some imaginative yet childish entities"
"the joys...the pain....the guilt.....the love....the anger....the fear...all of this and more....i felt because of this with great tides"
"Now...journey is a pitifully small word"
"It will be away but not forgotten...all i went through which was childish and painful yet nice"
"I will not let this die.."
"That lost of something...that something which was actually trying to help me in it's own way yet i was a fool to understand"
"Yes...perhaps all of that complex was actually my true desire for something more genuine in life rather than living an empty shell of a life"
"It's sad....despite being unreal and fictional...she felt like the most real thing to me....it's dumb i know"
"It's funny and stupid of me....imagining us actually being together every night before sleeping..."
"Like just sitting quietly and chatting together....seeing her smile at me....while me looking away embarrassingly...then she would draw her magical self while in my opinion being her persona just as mine is noah..."
"Going out...dating....having sweet stuff....listening to music together.....playing with her little brother.....her comforting me despite being denial of it yet it feels nice...her making me lie my head on her lap while she calmly strokes my hair telling me 'Everything will be alright' even though it isnt"
"Seeing her being nice to me....even though i'm just a pathetic person and me comforting her as she clings to me as i hold her and pat her head....her telling me all of her worries about her life....at that moment i feel like i'm the man i actually want to be for once"
"Then me sitting,looking from a wide view....thinking of all the pain and sadness i feel everyday....she comes behind me and holds me while i'm being fragile for once like a little girl...crying"
lets just say so many things happened when i started my university that made me wrote these thoughts out. i was concealing them for many years and that i was feeling alone,it felt really cold and lonely when you had no one like your own family around that campus..especially when you have somewhat anti social tendencies
other than some of the things he says/does I'm a fan of his works. he's someone I idle and try to reflect my brain accordingly. I read The Stand one summer as a young kid been addicted every since. I grew up faster than most I suppose. there are fanfics of his stuff I'm sure but I'm not really into those. I've read all of his works and own a few.
I am normally not a horror reader, and so not a prime audience for King's work. Still, friends recommended I read his work, so I tried The Shining when it first came out. It wasn't bad, and I felt for our protagonist's awkward situation, but the plot didn't pay off in a satisfying way. Friends later pressured me to read The Stand I loved the premise, having had a vaguely similar story idea when I was back in junior high school (nowhere near the detail of his book; just the general idea of post-apocalyptic survivors being fought over more forcefully than ever by both sides since they were so few and thus so precious. As with the previous read, I found his finale unsatisfying. The first TV series did it slightly better (while some things came out much worse). Still, these experiences led me to feel King was better at set-ups than payoffs, so I haven't read him since. I should note that I have seen a few more of his movies, including The Shawshank Redemption, The Shining, Lawnmower Man, The Mist and Carrie. The first is one of my favorite all-time movies, and Lawnmower Man -- especially in the Director's Cut -- was silly fun that aspired to greater things than the budget could manage.
I'm not actually a fan of his, but I do appreciate his creativity and source(s) of inspiration. My dad and I started naming our cars and gadgets after Christine (he had a saab that we named Saabrina) and my bro and I were big fans of his original It movie back when we were little (didn't see the new one). I loved his autobiography "On Writing," however. It was way better than the other books I read by him. I can't figure out how to tell its popularity, unfortunately.
Yes; I've read Carrie, The Shining, The Girl Who Loved Tom Gordon, Thinner, and Dolores Claiborne, and also the short story "Secret Window, Secret Garden." They were for a report about Stephen King that I did as a project in 12th grade. I can't remember the title, but I also read a book by King about a man who paints pictures, and a boat keeps appearing in them and coming closer in each painting.