-I've improved on my art drastically, especially when compared to my earlier art (such as stuff from the beginning of the school year) -I've become more athletic+energetic. -I've become more shy, but have formed closer bonds with those I care about (friend-wise). -I've gotten less sleep, likely to prepare me to wake up around 5:00 AM or earlier. That's just some of it.
Suddenly actually became interest in doing something more with my life than sit in front of a computer and draw, or spend another God knows how many years waiting tables. I applied to a modelling agency since I always wanted to do that but never really tried. Hoping to hear back from them. My work hasn't changed but I guess I have a slightly better attitude towards it when I show up (can still be undone by a shit shift though) and I'm trying to get into the world of dating too, just via apps for now, but it's a start. Made changes to my garden (my other main passion) over the past several months to make it so it's slightly less maintenance from now on so when next growing season comes around I can not be a slave to keeping the garden good all summer long and maybe do other stuff besides stress over "are my plants gonna die in this heat if I don't water them today" for months on end. Also I think I'm gonna start secretly doing some exercises in my room. I want abs and pecs, even if just lean ones (since I can't put on the weight necessary to bulk up and wouldn't want to anyway since I have a lot of expensive clothes I wouldn't fit into anymore if I ended up beefy anyway)
It was all triggered when I came to the realization I'll be 30 in a couple of months and barely did fuck all with my 20's. Lucky for me I've aged well so far and people still assume I'm way younger, but I can't coast by on "luck" forever. I kinda wasted my 20's, but I guess I can forgive myself for it if I peak in my 30's (just as everyone else my age is starting to wind down) I've always taken a long time to enter each phase of life. Like a slow-growing tree that takes longer to bear fruits, I'll hopefully be able to put some out in the coming years and they'll be sweeter. And if not, well - back to sitting in front of a computer until I die
+ More outgoing IRL (less of a loner) + More motivated and outspoken ++ Resourcefulness + Mentally tougher + Stronger overall
- Less socially avaible online - More emotional turmoil due to work stress and commitments - More disgust with myself when I fail to live up to my own elevated expectations - Less "out there" with my flowery strangeness due to having to be more mature and efficient in what I do.
Over the past year I learned to manage my time better. My 92-year-old grandmother passed away last February 15, but six months prior to that, my mother and I cared for her and nursed her because she was bed-ridden, had renal failure, and needed medication.
We were also given a puppy, but he wasn't really high-maintenance. Occasionally, my mother paid someone to clean for us, but other than that, we had to be smart about housework like cooking meals, putting out the garbage, and doing the laundry. In spite of this, I didn't abandon my art, piano practice, and creative writing.
What helped me was a technique called "errand bundling," which means that if I had to go out to pay the bills, I'd make sure to buy something necessary from the grocery store as well, like toiletry or ingredients for cooking. I would also bulk buy cardstock and crafts materials for my small business.
I found pockets of time here and there to sketch, draw, or paint -- a half hour before lunch, an hour after coming back from piano practice, and before going to bed at night. Mom (she's already retired and living off her pension, BTW) and I made sure that most of the chores were done in the morning.
I can't really say I've changed for the better, but I am starting to feel a little better after the events of the past year. I had lost 3 family members, got kicked out, picked up my most dreaded job, and got depression. The positives are that I was able to move into my own apartment with my boyfriend, who a few months ago proposed and became my fiance. I got another new job, and I struggled with it at first, but it has become my favorite of the two, even though I'd rather find something else completely.
+More aware of what's happening +More hyper +More emotionally intelligent +More mature on the public internet (other than the mature behavior I use on dA, myself on Discord represents the total opposite.) +Less depressive and negative +No longer suicidal
-Can get pissed even more faster -Politics are still boring -Less loyal to my family
whats with all these "would u find it funny if I got beat up and lay on the floor crying like a baby sissy boy covered in blood and bruises???" comments?? whats that have to do with anything said here????