Once again I'm up past stupid o'clock and it's very much nearing 6am, as if that's not bad enough I'm hungry but I don't eat when I'm about to go to sleep. Bad because you store more fat to your body if you do that.
Nope, I was underweight a while back and up until recently I haven't really had to worry about putting weight on, it was actually a struggle to. But now I'm quite a bit heavier than I was when I was under and I just don't want to pile too much more on, especially since I can't seem to bring ,yself to exercise like I used too.
2 female friends that want space, and I'm concerned on how the progress is going. They say they don't care for me anymore. However, they fail to put into action and prove whats said. They're not blocking. One of them, whom is on this site, is choosing hiatus > one person, me. So that's care I guess. The other saw my PM on Facebook, and not deleted it.
I guess they're testing me, by letting me give them what they want...., I don't know. I just need to go with the flow and hope things work out.
Ah this post might depress you. In school I had to work with these two girls that REALLY hate me and show it, and I hate THEM but I don't show it because I'm too polite, and they totally left me out of my group and isolated me...so I left and no one noticed....
Too depressing. I'm going to go and watch Friends to become cheerful again :3
Crippling loneliness coupled with a fear that I'll lose my job less from being useless and more from business overall being bad (I work in an art store). "Just finding another job" is not an option. I have tried. If it were possible I wouldn't bounce from part time minimum wage seasonal job to part time minimum wage seasonal job. 8 jobs in 4.5 years, only two were permanent, none were part time.
I am worn out from fighting. And it goes beyond work and loneliness, although I have no friends.
I'll need to go grocery shopping later today. My problem is the weather. It's 14°F outside and the wind is blowing rather hard. The store I normally go to is at the top of a rather high hill, so it's going to be even worse up there. On the bright side, it isn't snowing.
My grandmother nitpicks at me about everything, no matter what I do! I sit down with a book; you read too much! I turn on the TV; you should read a book instead! It's seriously annoying, and she doesn't do it to my brother so why me?
Also, my parents side with her...and all three of them are somehow convinced that I should get a boyfriend (all your cousins had one at your age!). I like being single, and besides I'm lesbian...which they're in denial about.