xxEvilBlondiexxFeatured By OwnerJan 17, 2013Hobbyist General Artist
I was terrified of dying pretty much all through my childhood. Mostly I was scared because I was sure I was going to go to Hell. I never told anyone about it because I thought that I was the only "bad" one and didn't want anyone else to know for fear that they would reject me. I'm not a Christian anymore, so I don't really believe in Hell, but I'm still afraid of what happens to us after we die. In a weird way nonexistence seems almost as terrifying as eternal torture (almost). I don't really tend to think too much about it anymore though.
Just the sheer thought of not being able to experience anything after death or even have a consciousness is very scary to me, but I think everyone eventually grows out of that. I'm still young so, I am kind of going through this phase, but not to the point where I cry, I was more oblivious to it when I was really young (probably because my family is Catholic and reassured those thoughts with things like Heaven). I'm rambling -__-
I have heard of others fearing death before but I've never seemed to be one of those people. One reason might be my faith, another might be my personality, or even how I was raised, I'm not really sure why I've never feared death. I don't fear how I will die or even when but I do hope to leave my mark on this world. The only thing I wish for when it comes to my death is that it isn't meaning less. That in someway somehow my death or the time before my death helps someone.
terminallyboredFeatured By OwnerJan 16, 2013Hobbyist General Artist
My fear of death started when I was sick in 2005 and thought I was on my deathbed. I was laying in a hospital bed praying to God not to take me, and I've been screwed up emotionally since that happened >:I If I could be sure there is an afterlife (though there probably isn't) I would be much less afraid of dying.
I tell myself i'm not afraid of dying, but I probably am deep down inside. But I'm more afraid of being alone, if everyone around me and in my life passed away. If that happened, i'd want to die too .__.
We are traveling from the day we were born. And the final destination is an only one.
Well, I had that phase too. I was scared by the Death. But then I realized that it wasn't the fact of dying that scared me. It was that I don't know what happens after I die. Is it somethig? And I asked it to my parents, they said there's Heaven. And I asked again: And after Heaven? They said two things, two possibilities: 1- Heaven lasts forever. But it was ridiculous to me (nowadays too) I am not able to think about something without an end 2- Nothing. We die, we go to Heaven and when it finishes we all -puff- go and end. It is really ridiculous and scary too. I can't accept it.
Now I live every day trying to not think about it. I live per day. We lie when we say "I'm scared of dying!!!!" We are scared about what we don't know. No one knows what there's Over There. Or if there's something. No one came back to give us some infos.
Yea I don't believe in religion, although born into Catholicism, I find it to be absurd most of the time.
If there is one thing that I think is AWESOME about most religion is life after death. I think its interesting that we are animals that have the unique ability to reason and problem solve. So we say to ourselves that there is no possible way that we can just die and have that be it...WE ARE SUPERIOR!...but I think we can accept that ants and maggots will die and there is no way there could be a heaven for them...I believe we are all a part of this planet just as much as maggots are and the scary thing is that we are obviously superior than them but we both hold the same fate.
I personally don't want death to be the end of my mind. I want to know what is beyond our galaxy. I want to understand this UNIVERSE....ok I might just stop there. I'm getting too dramatic.
When I was in my adolescence, I always fantasized about dying. In fact, I tried to take on my life a couple of times through OD'ing on various pills, but here I am.
I don't think I am ready to die just yet, but I wouldn't say never in the future. I'm a positive person but I don't think I am that afraid of dying... I am just afraid of living an unfulfilled life, that's all.