xxEvilBlondiexxFeatured By OwnerJan 17, 2013Hobbyist General Artist
I was terrified of dying pretty much all through my childhood. Mostly I was scared because I was sure I was going to go to Hell. I never told anyone about it because I thought that I was the only "bad" one and didn't want anyone else to know for fear that they would reject me. I'm not a Christian anymore, so I don't really believe in Hell, but I'm still afraid of what happens to us after we die. In a weird way nonexistence seems almost as terrifying as eternal torture (almost). I don't really tend to think too much about it anymore though.
Just the sheer thought of not being able to experience anything after death or even have a consciousness is very scary to me, but I think everyone eventually grows out of that. I'm still young so, I am kind of going through this phase, but not to the point where I cry, I was more oblivious to it when I was really young (probably because my family is Catholic and reassured those thoughts with things like Heaven). I'm rambling -__-
I have heard of others fearing death before but I've never seemed to be one of those people. One reason might be my faith, another might be my personality, or even how I was raised, I'm not really sure why I've never feared death. I don't fear how I will die or even when but I do hope to leave my mark on this world. The only thing I wish for when it comes to my death is that it isn't meaning less. That in someway somehow my death or the time before my death helps someone.