It's one of my favorite pieces I've drawn, and I'm proud of it. I do not intend my avatars to be used to represent me as male, female, etc. but rather my art, and the emotions and experiences it brings with it. If my favorite work was a picture of a tree, you'd see a tree.
i dont know what comes after death, i guess i'll have to wait till i die to find out.
i did have a strange experience one time where i feel that i traveled to some "death dimension" unintentionally. i was laying down, tired in a dreamy state, and i suddenly drifted off to a sort of "sleep" where i found myself in a "dream" but it felt a bit different than a dream, it felt like i went to some other dimension, the way the dimension felt when i was there caused me to intuitively associate it with death because thats the sense i got when i was there, it felt kind of like i was all knowing weightless and timeless and floating, the colors there were milky white, milky blue, milky gray and an infinite black, i felt like i knew i was in a death dimension and i understood all of life death and everything else, i was in the same room i fell asleep in in this reality except it was coated in that death dimension with those colors i mentioned, there were also 3 dead kids there, they didnt seem to care at all that i was there and i got the sense that one of there names was Trevor (the boy) and he died from an overdose of pills, the other two were girls. to describe it, it felt like this world that we live in while we are alive is an infinite inhale, the death dimension felt like an infinite exhale with no inhale, it was a pretty cool experience.
Why is everyone so scared of oblivion. We knew nothing before we were born and we will know nothing after we are gone. Just enjoy the ride and fell proud to have been a human being and been able to even think about existence in the first place.