Ive had depression all my life. Its bad, but probably not as bad it could be. I just wake up some days without the will to get washed, i eat too much some times just cus I don't care, alcahol doesn't do an awful lot and since being unemployed as well its added to the mix. I wish you the best ameigo, cus I can't help myself let alone you.
I have had probably about 8 different psychiatrists and probably 15 different therapists.
7 of the 8 psychiatrists were pretty much useless.
13 of the 15 therapists were the same.
Regarding mental health there really is an extremely small amount of good help out there. Some people are helped by this bad help, not because of the therapy or drugs, but because of the placebo effect, or because of other factors in their life.
If you really want to get good mental health, look very hard. The way I found good help: I found some people who were sane and wise, and I got them to recommend me my current doctors.
good help may cost you more. alternately, it may not. but be warned. sometimes it is worth a little extra money to get decent mental health help.
besides that I'll add another thing. all sane mental health professionals will (quite correctly) say to you that the help they offer is only a small part of handling your mental illness (if your professional says otherwise, drop them immediately and replace them with someone else) So, If you really want to be healthy, do not start to think your problem will be solved by a mental health professional. as a rule, they will not do miracles. they will only help with one corner of your mental illness. Do go to them, but keep this in mind, to fix the rest of your problem, you will/may need to do some or all of the following:
1. wait. some mental illnesses are aggrevated by current circumstances, or by the stresses of puberty or whatever. some symptoms may decrease or go away given time. 2. Bring order into your life. this may take the form of: social groups you associate with. religion you associate with. Self-discipline. A reliable job. Doing your homework. Respecting your parents. etc. 3. Finding emotional balance in your life. read: learning not to take yourself seriously. 4. Associating with good friends. 5. Removing yourself from association with bad friends. 6. Any number of other healthy habits, to numerous for me to name.