sandmanfallingoutFeatured By OwnerFeb 7, 2013Hobbyist Photographer
ps most people will say they are christian and will go to the church but they dont realy care its just interanment
i am just like you i do not realy even care to much if there is god i go to a church i am not a meber but i am the show up half the time and big help type person most every one knows i go to church to help out and being intertaned is basicly how they pay me
if you like going to church go to church if you dont belive then make it clear just dont be disrespect full and in the way christiany is one of the most leniant religon there is so it most likey wont matter if you truely belive
ps i have 2 people at the church i go to and they are athist
If you end up not believing, then really you don't have anything to worry about...other than if and when you decide to tell other people. I was born and raised to be a Christian but lost my faith somewhere around junior high or early high school, and so far my mom knows (and despises it) but my father accepts it completely (even if he thinks that maybe one day I'll change my mind, he's not pushing it).
That aside, you're not a bad person. It's normal, even for those who are dedicated.
Maybe you feel that way because the Lutheran Church is wack.
I'm Christian but I ain't level with the beliefs of the Lutherans. mind you I have a few Lutheran friends.
It sounds like you were investigating and you found it's not for you. that's fine. I did lots of investigation of different religions (some not even christian) before I came to a conclusion.
Bottom line is, you can't become a christian unless God works in you, and calls you to. He sometimes uses people to do so, but, more often, people are willful and just do things according to their own desire (i.e. they don't listen to God).
my advice is simply to be open to God. the most important thing in life is love, and he's the source of that good thing. there is nothing else that matters.
This is life. We have to try and sometimes we fail. It's normal to test ourselves. It's normal to have doubts. You want to try to fit in. You want to taste the joy the other believers seems to experience. You want to understand. But, faith doesn't come from the brain, it comes from the heart. You're not a bad person. You just had to try... and fail to learn. You've learned about yourself and it's a great thing. Knowing what you know now, it's time to accept that you're not the Christian you were aiming to be. You don't need a label to be good, to do the right things. Religions help some people, but others don't need a shepherd; they can walk all alone in the right path.