Thanks to all of you who replied with wonderful advice.
I am coping much better now and I think I can handle it from now on.
My panic attacks aren't as severe as they used to be a year ago, and now I think they are actually starting to get even better than last week.
Also I want to clear up something- I do not bother my boyfriend with my problems (unless it's about family or school which are minimal) and he is free to do whatever he wants, so I'm sorry if this complaint came off as "needy" in any way. It was not meant to be that. I just needed to express myself and writing is not my strongest point.
I will be closing this thread soon, so no more comments please.
Again, thank you for all of your supportive help! I'm sorry if this bothered anyone in the slightest.
Like I'm sure others have hinted at, you need to figure out some sort of coping mechanism for these situations. While it's great that your boyfriend is supportive, you can't depend on him so heavily. It's probably stressful for both of you that way.
I don't have an easy answer for finding a coping mechanism, since it sounds like you've been trying. If it helps, just keep assuring yourself "He's just going to see his parents, he'll be back in a few days," and find a way to keep your mind off of it. I know I personally like to play video games to pass the time when I have free time. Otherwise, perhaps a counselor could recommend a better way to manage the anxiety.
I am going to say that I don't really understand your panic attacks about being alone...? But i say keep working at the being okay alone thing and to do the same as everyone else has told you on here. xD
I think for the future of this relationship (and maybe others) you gotta figure out a way to be comfortable with just yourself, and not need someone else to have a basic feeling of security. That's not a burden that you should put on another person, it's something everyone needs to carry on their own.
Just don't worry so much. If you continue to be this attached, he may grow uncomfortable and may not want to be with you. I know I certainly wouldn't want a girlfriend who is too clingy. Just settle down and try to take your mind off of things.
Well, it depends upon what's bothering you. If your BF cares enough, he'll listen to you and try to comfort you, unless it's about missing being with him, then yes, he probably will get a little annoyed.
I know. We've talked about it, and he does try his best to spend time with me when he can. But when his friends ask him to play he looks all sad so I let him since, well, at least he's not doing anything bad.
It is hard to stay distracted when you are alone and panicked, perhaps you should try some really relaxing things like taking a nice long bath or watching a favorite movie. If social ness helps you calm down, try joining a video chat with some friends, seeing the people will tell your brain there is a person there instead of just text. If you like to drink tea, try a soothing herbal tea. Treat yourself, especially when you stay calm. Don't feel too bad about blowing up on your boy, you already apologized, and no one is on their best behavior when they are afraid. Chin up, you've totally got this. One hour at a time.
Yes it is. >x< I think I'll watch some movies then. It should keep my mind off of it at least for a few nights. I know it's okay to feel that way, but regardless I still feel guilty about it. I guess that's just how I was raised. Parents always discouraged crying..
Thank you so much for your advice! I will try to get some herbal tea next time I go grocery shopping.
Just going to say that I read every single word you typed Keep hanging on there, he will come back. I can tell you really love him, I'm sure he loves you back equally or maybe more. Just keep doing your best in understanding him and everything will be fine ^^