First of all it will sound weird but calm down. I know it sounds stupid because you really are afraid but. I Don't know about you and your parents but what you say sounds so stressed!. If you have a mental disorder is normal going to that kind of health institutions and I'm so sorry if it has no cure but, apparently you didn't said it hadn't a cure, just that it wasn't working. I'm not an expert but I've had some health problems which were reaaaaaally stressing, at least for me and the more I stressed the worse they were. And I spent a lot of time in my life complaining and crying and shouting the hell that I wanted it to end. But nothing of that worked. Just by learning to live with it and assuming that it was me who was making it worse was enough to cure it. Yeah, and it wasn't a mental disorder it was a physical problem. So I think that somehow, by relazing, you can help it. If your parents don't want to take you to a docto go by yourself and tell you that you really are stressed and that you would like to calm down and you can't. There are medicins for that and they're very effective. They also can help you in a bad period and then you can start living without them. So, I think that would be the best thing you can do ^^
I've suffered from panic attacks and high anxiety and there is no way to get a person to understand unless they've experienced it them self or if you on a rare occasion run into an intelligent person, lol
I unfortunately don't know what else to say other than to seek professional help? I hate that answer but I just don't know.
Just don't feed the problem. you have the power to make it better and you have the power to make it worse.
If the last one you went to scared you, find another one.
I have all sorts of crap going on. I treat some of it, some of it I don't. And my doctors are very happy to work with me on that.
Right now the only symptom I'm treating are hallucinations/voices, because they make it harder to function. I spend to much time dealing with that crap. So I'm on stuff to make it better. It doesn't make it gone, just not so much of a pain.
I've been medicated for other things, too, but ended up dropping all of those due to side effects.
I'm not academically trained to understand this but I can with having gained insight through my own similar experiences (suffering from a form of schizophrenia) I can tell you that you don't have to be scared. These hallucinations are not real and the more you worry, the worse it'll become as you are consumed in your thoughts - which ultimately, is all there is to the voices. They just manifest as auditory hallucinations. I take it you've already been told this, and I know it's hard to shake when they seem so real, but it's the truth. <3
I don't mind normal hospitals I cool with those heck stick an iv in my arm ill watch don't care. But the last time I went to a mental one a guy was screaming at me about evil monkeys going o eat him alive and how I needed to help hi. O.o it was one of the weirdest experiences ive ever had. (That's not the only reason why I'm scared of that place.)