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Is there such a thing as functionally sane?

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SethAdmirer Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Perhaps this isn't the best place to divulge things like this. All the same, I'd like to see your take and comments.

I wouldn't say I'm suicidal, but my self-preservation instincts seem a little...off. There were quite a few situations that threatened either my life or wellbeing significantly in which I was unable to produce a response. Only luck had saved me.

Also, I had a few unhappy memories in the past, and only recently realised that I don't remember them. Well, I've a general idea what happened, but not the specifics. Faces, time, place and sensations are all gone. That should be a plus point, except every time I face too much pressure for too long, something resurfaces and causes a mental breakdown before fading AGAIN. I've had about three incidences like this these few months. So it's rare enough not to ruin my life, but the side effects are quite debilitating.

Has anyone here undergone similar experiences? It would also be helpful if you could provide suggestions on how to get discreet, constructive help; because I can't afford therapy or letting ANYONE, including my family/ community know about this. Thank you.
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Imnurhest Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yup.

"We're all mad here." ~ Cheshire Cat
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SethAdmirer Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Good answer. ;)
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meggierenee Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013  Professional General Artist
Can you go to a mental health clinic that charges on a sliding scale?

I believe there is a thing as functionally sane. I have schizoaffective disorder and absolutely cannot function without medication. It's scary to think back to the times I had before seeking treatment. However, with my medication, most people can't even tell I'm sick. I work, go to school, and I'm married. My life is pretty normal...boring even.
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SethAdmirer Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Errmmmm...no? I thought their rates go by the hours and the meds. :/

Anyway, it's good to hear that you're getting on with life now. :)

I'd kinda always hoped it wouldn't boil down to the pills though. I am certainly not looking forward the money required and the side effects. Is it possible to rely solely on maybe therapy, counselling, support groups and the like?
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meggierenee Featured By Owner Feb 11, 2013  Professional General Artist
I'm not sure where you are located, but in the US there are many places that have clinics that charge on a sliding scale based on your income so they can better serve low income families.

If your problems are clinical and not situational I don't think you can get by with just support groups and therapy. Mental illnesses are physical medical conditions that you can't talk your way out of. Therapy could help with life skills and coping techniques, but it won't treat the actual symptoms.

It's not so bad taking medication. I'm used to it now and I function so much better with pills.
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prosaix Featured By Owner Feb 5, 2013
yeah probably.
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SethAdmirer Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh; ok. (*stares hypnotically at icon*)
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lukasbennett Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Professional Photographer
When a person has been through a traumatic event in their life, a automatic mental coping mechanism becomes active. This blocks out all the bad memories or causes you to blackout during the traumatic experience... but your subconscious remembers everything.

When you get put in similar situations, stressful situations, or when you get particully angry it can bring back the memories in flashes which can cause depression and cause people to self harm.

you find that people blame other stressful situations as the reasoning behind everything, not knowlingly... it's somthing far worse and underlying.

the only way to get through suck things is to see a specialist as they will provide help. If you try and figure out the cause yourself without help, the situations may become dire.

you find this with a lot of children who has been sexually abused
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SethAdmirer Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well, no; I wasn't sexually abused. There was some light beatings and quite a bit of psychological abuse; maybe possibly emotional and social abuse. The latter can be quite hard to categorise. =_=

Yeah, the flashback bit. Christ, that hurt. ): Thankfully, I'm self-aware enough and retain sufficient memories to know the reason behind some of my feelings and impulses; so I can regulate myself to a degree. At least, minimal blaming. Nobody should have to suffer for my kooky moments.Though there are probably some things that escape the net.

I know everyone is suggesting therapy, and I understand that it's the best option. But I can't afford one right now. It'll also come with a lot of sticky downsides in my current position. So I'm toughing it out with counselling and more reading at this stage. It's just maybe 3 to 5 years till I get a job; so I'll be ok.

Thanks for sharing. :)
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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
It's strange, but can also be a free thought, to realize that every single person has character traits like this, more or less.
There's no such thing as madness or insanity. The whole concept was never proven, and there's no such thing as a harsh borderline for what's insane and what's not. It's just a system that people thought up, to get rid of those people in society that cause a lot of trouble, or are too weird to be accepted anyway.

If it's really bothering you, you could think about therapy, or self help. There are a lot of websites or books that are there to help you through this kind of thing. To me, just realizing that I wasn't the only one, and that we're all mad, was a very relieving thought already.
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