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help. I hate melt downs because every time I get closer to suicide n last time I got lucky. I can always tell when another one is coming and its right around the corner. I'm scared. When I break down I cry I scream I hear voices I have hallucinations I literally fall apart. Last time my parents found out and took my scissors away and hid all the knives so I wouldn't cut myself. They also took me to a mental hospital and it was scary.
I cant take life I hats and love it at the same time but right now I feel lost and alone and I keep lashing out at myself n at my closest friends. I hate it n it wont stop until the melt down ends. I don't want to live if this how my life is going to be. I want a family one day but if I cant handle pain n stress without a melt down then maybe I'm not suppose to live.
The worse part is is that my parents are sending me to all these doctors but I don't feel like anyone can see how badly its getting. My friends think I'm happy because I pretend so they wont worry. But I'm not happy.
I just want to cry and someone to talk to. I want to know I'm not alone. Is there any way I can get rid of my break downs?
I cant take life I hats and love it at the same time but right now I feel lost and alone and I keep lashing out at myself n at my closest friends. I hate it n it wont stop until the melt down ends. I don't want to live if this how my life is going to be. I want a family one day but if I cant handle pain n stress without a melt down then maybe I'm not suppose to live.
The worse part is is that my parents are sending me to all these doctors but I don't feel like anyone can see how badly its getting. My friends think I'm happy because I pretend so they wont worry. But I'm not happy.
I just want to cry and someone to talk to. I want to know I'm not alone. Is there any way I can get rid of my break downs?
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I had your exact troubles. Still get 'em when I handle my diet poorly. I'd get these episodes where I was halfway stuck in another world where people burned and voices screamed, and there was no way for me to get into either one to get some god damn consistency in my own mind. I honestly recommend the paleo diet. Getting sugar out of your grub helps. It really, really does.
as much as i hate the word diet mainly because of my acid reflux that makes sense and i'll try that thank you.
Not really a 'diet' in the crash-diet sense. Most people call it a lifestyle. It is a LCHF diet that doesn't 'count calories', and it shouldn't trigger your acid reflux. There's a bunch of websites and forums that offer information about this, and topics about the effects on mental health. Give me a shout if you need any help.
Okay thanks!
if your here i want you to read and respond. i t might sound strange but i want you to think of what hurts you so much. then let out any tears you have. next i want you write about all the dreams you have. after that if you believe in god i want you to pray. if you don;t pray anyway. after that think of everyone who cares about you. then write to me and promise me you'll live no matter what the circumstance
I feel like I've done that before...
do it again
but I'll try
Try to calm yourself down. If you start getting a meltdown, get up and start to walk around the house or go outside. You can also draw/scribble to get things off your mind. Another thing is that you can start drinking tea to relax your mind. Try talking it out with your counselor/parents or friends without trying to make yourself angry.
dont kill yourself. write a poem instead.
i already have ive done every thin my counselor told me to do when I feel like this. 
oh that sucks...umm...TAKE A NAP!
I can't sleep D:
that REALLY sucks...
*hugs*
*hugs back*
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Are you taking any medication currently? Are you going to therapy?
Last time I was taking 54 Mg of concerta for my a.d.d. and they realized I was being overdosed now I'm taking 27 Mg. I am seeing a counselor n a doctor. But I don't feel like its making a difference.
Then you may need a different medication and a different therapist.
I don't think it really matters part of my stress problems is coming from all these doctors. I feel like a lab rat, a puny rat that is being experimented on so much that i can't think straight.
So you’re saying you think you don’t need therapy at all? Or that you don’t need medication. You could be right about the meds. But just based on what you’re saying here, I think it would be a mistake to discontinue therapy. From having working in the psych unit before, I can tell you that often the experience of just being there appears to be traumatic for some people, especially the pediatric patients.
I understand but the therapists is not helping right now, she's just a person to talk to but I don't think she can hear me.
Then she isn’t serving her purpose. You need someone else.
I encounter this a lot. Patients don’t realize that when it comes to therapists, they are entitled to some degree of customer satisfaction. If you went to a restaurant and ordered something and didn’t like it, would you keep going back and ordering it again and again, in the hope that it would eventually taste good? No. Sometimes finding the right therapist is a chore. But it is worth it in the long run.
I encounter this a lot. Patients don’t realize that when it comes to therapists, they are entitled to some degree of customer satisfaction. If you went to a restaurant and ordered something and didn’t like it, would you keep going back and ordering it again and again, in the hope that it would eventually taste good? No. Sometimes finding the right therapist is a chore. But it is worth it in the long run.