Oh,sweetheart.I'm so sorry you had to go through all that alone! You remind me so much of myself when I was younger,my parents were at the verge of divorcing and for twelve years I went through not having real or ANY friends too! But it'll get better,please trust me on this, never give up on people,no matter how bad,how lonely it seems, know that there are people out there who are also looking for someone like you! I remember the first time one of my friends right now drew me an artwork I nearly cried because all my life I had always drawn for others and no one had ever drawn for me.I remember I used to be excluded and being awkawd with a certain group of so called friends a few years back,I was like the friend no one wanted to be friends with, and shitty things happened,but I knew that not everyone is like that and I was right! Someday you WILL find some people,someone who appreciates you, who will draw pictures for you, will be interested in your opinion and interests and who will comfort you when you are down! You seem like a kind,giving and sweet person, and I am very sorry you have to deal with such scumbags! A real friend will never tell you are stupid or look down on you unless it's to help you up!You deserve people who will appreciate you for who you are and will respect you! If you want to,I'm always here to talk!
You're not wrong, they are. I'm going through a similar experience, except that I have an amazing friend who I've been friends with for about 8 years now- who I never want to hurt by leaving. Thats why I sit and suffer. I hope you stay strong and talk to me if you need- I've just started confronting them.
Good friends are comparable to a symbiotic relationship between animals. Both sides should benefit, or else it's not like that. You sound like a really nice guy, so you should be friends with people who make you feel as wanted and loved as you deserve. I wouldn't suggest going for the 'popular' crowd, they aren't as accepting of new people. Talk to someone that doesn't look like they have any friends either, or go talk to the small group of the geeky people (Heh, that's who my friends are, and they're great.) There is always someone else. The only friends that should say mean things are the ones that you KNOW don't mean it and you can say mean things back and both laugh. Once you have one good friend, they'll introduce you to their friends, and so on, until you know almost everyone. Just remember to be nice and make a good first impression, because the people you hang out with now really don't seem like they deserve you.
As you describe it, I don't really call them friends. Or really sucky friends. I think, friends are there to give you energy and yes to help you. I haven't had many friends in my life. I wish I had, then I would finish art school but I didn't because I didn't have friends there so I wasn't motivated. And now I'm still barely motivated because I have no friends. Friendship is a very important part of life, we're social animals. That's why friendship is the most important part in love too. To not feel lonely, to want to keep living, to get energy from, to share things with someone else...I value friends.