95% of the time I think of my self as awkward... Everything down to the way I act with other people around me (even if they are total strangers I walk past on my way to school) makes me believe this is true. I admit the thoughts of others around me TERRIFY me, I let one piece of clothing that's sliding a bit too low or simply the way I walk corrupt my thoughts and ruin my day at school or even outside of school. Even my own dark skin color bothers me sometimes, there have been times when I've shopped at store only to put down every item of clothing I've picked up if I notice another girl/guy glancing at me for a second, and it's embarrassing! I seem to feel the most self-conscious at school with all the other kids making fun of each other harshly and even making rude comments about african-americans and dark skin...I'm afraid to feel pretty only to have someone make me feel ugly..At home I don't have this problem but when I'm around others I shrink within myself.
What to do about this?
Another thing I find difficulty with is loving who I am, when I don't know who I am which is where all these negative term come from which I use to describe myself (as I haven't been working towards achieving my dream of working in the art entertainment industry)
I used to be very awkward also, in fact . . . I still am. Over the years as I have done more things it has gotten better, but I still have my nervousness. The best advice I have, is never let your nerves stop you from doing something you really want to do, that way you have one less thing to be nervous about. Doing the things I want to do anyway has helped me out the most.
I'm getting better at pursuing the things I want and instead of saying 'I want' I just do it I am still awkward around people which I'm guessing will happen for a while.
I luv her, too!(i didn't mean it in a bad way that she was a philosopher. i'm just saying that a lot of her songs have inspirational messages giving her that sort of image)
What to do about this?
Another thing I find difficulty with is loving who I am, when I don't know who I am which is where all these negative term come from which I use to describe myself (as I haven't been working towards achieving my dream of working in the art entertainment industry)