I'm homeless, jobless, was forced out of education for the sake of being able to BE THERE for the people I loved most, and when it was their turn to be there for ME, they abandoned me. I also run a rooster rescue, and have PROVEN that roosters CAN live in peace together, even in the presence of hens ( had twenty-two roosters, four hens, a quail, and a turkey at one point ), and even fighting cocks can be rehabilitated. Because I refuse to give up my chickens, I can't find a place to live. Because I've been out of work so long, and my previous work experience is as a Certified Veterinary Assistant, I can not find work either in my field ( because of such a long time since my last job ), and because any other field thinks I'm overqualified and would jump ship them moment a better offer came along. I was granted a 14,000$ scholarship by the state, which was then taken away because the "state government couldn't afford it", thus forced out of higher education.
And yet, I really, honestly, can't say that things are all that bad. I'm pretty lonely most of the time, but I can't say that I'm not happy with the way my life is right now, either.
I'm sorry you feel this way. It is hard to be lonely.
These folks would be glad to talk to you. They specialize in talking to people who feel down in the dumps. Give them an e-mail: [link]
So....if you want to talk, tell me about yourself. What part of the world are you from? Where are you living now? Any place you call home? What is your age range? Any pets (they help with loneliness!!!)? Any cultural practices that shape your life? Religious/spiritual convictions? What about your hobbies? What drew you to DA?
Me, I'm a 20-something female living in the Eastern US. I enjoy drawing, writing, reading, singing, cats, The Piano Guys, babies, language, and my family. I'm have one more semester in my Registered Nurse program and would like to become a nurse midwife eventually. I grew up in a Mennonite (Anabaptist) church and am now an active member of that church. It's a Christian denomination, so I believe that Jesus is everything!
Do keep plugging on. I hope you can find people that will offer you open, intimate friendship and help you rise above the worst of your isolation. We are creatures who need each other.