~Hello There! ^.^ I just looked at your art and......LOVE! You have much talent! I believe that your friend may be going through something you may not know of, so she is lashing out on you. And it may be that time to just have a talk and tell her she doesn't stop, you might have to take a break. You definitely do not have to give her up as a friend. If you guys are good friends, you will get through it and go back to the way things are! I'm routing for you! C:
She is your friend? o_O like, you have had past relations with and not just a complete stranger being an asshole? I think she may she jealous, especially of your art is good. And I must say, your art is quite good.
Loneliness sucks, both for you and for her. People will be fucking asshats to get away from the feeling of loneliness, and sometimes they succeed in drowning it out. Until you properly learn to deal with it, though, it will always come back - and then the people you used to hang out with to numb the feeling, just won't be enough anymore.
She need to move on as much as you need to move on. She's a fucking bitch and she will probably stay like that for a few more acquaintances. She needs it. She'll learn. And you will learn too, despite the fact that it sucks to be dumped by a person who you thought you were friends with. Grieve if you have to, but then you just move on. Things won't be the same between you for a long while, if ever, and it would be futile to try and pretend otherwise.
If she apologizes to you someday with a satisfactory excuse about why she acted the way she did (e.g.: "My grandma had just died and I didn't know how to handle it so I lashed out at you," "I was having an existential crisis," "I've just been diagnosed with PMDD/manic depression/schizophrenia/multiple personality disorder"), accept the apology if and when it's sincere. Until then, congratulate yourself of being free of this negative influence in your life.
I had a friend last year that I had a few arguments with and tried to patch things up a few times, until he finally pulled a stunt so bogus and pointedly disrespectful while we were trying to patch things up that as soon as I read his text I actually laughed out loud that anyone could be that much of an asshole and instantly had no desire to have any further dealings with him in my life whatsoever.
I cut that bitch loose and you need to cut this one loose. This needs to be that moment for you. There's no need to mourn when you realize there was never anything worth mourning to begin with, because that person was always using and disrespecting you.
... I'm somehow hoping for an apology... But I think I'll never get one...
Yeah, I think it would be better to just forget about her... But it's really difficult, sionce I liked her so much. I still do like her, and I seriously don't understand why. But... It is better for me to let go.
I think you need to question how much you actually like this person who is saying such hurtful things to you on an ongoing basis knowing how much it upsets you. Honestly, it sounds like you'd be better off without this particular 'friend'.
In this circumstance however, I think it is very hard to maintain the same friendship. When you repeatedly tell someone they are doing something which hurts you and they continue, it seems to mean that they don't care. How many times have they done this? In my experience, four times or more = they are likely to never stop. The only possible other way to solve the circumstance is to bring in a third party that knows you both and could explain the situation to this girl. If this does not work/ is not feasable, this is my advice: If this person is really important to you, I would maintain your acquaintance with them but distance yourself from being a close friend. Unless something big changes, keep it that way. Otherwise it's just a ridiculously absurd situation.
True... but then it's more like she keeps telling me that I truly suck and she actually never liked me, but just used me because she was alone back then when we got to know eachother. That is what I got from her notes... This truly does hurt.
I'd really like to be her friend. But then I think it might be better to wait and distance myselfr from her...
shes probably really angry right now. either to you or something else. she probably says those simply to upset you. i say just be there. give her some time like a few days (dont know how frequently you spoke) and than just be there. dont go, leave, block etc. just there, online and still talking. these were the treatments i received from my friends when i "lost my mind".
I don't know if waiting and being there helps. I just feel like I'm being used... >_< Or was used. Now she doesn't need me anymore and therefore tries to get rid of me like this... u_u That's what I feel when I read her notes... u_u
i dont think you really need a person who will keep treating you like that~ if she was really your friend she would be nice to you and she'd apologize to you for what she has done and she would of stopped what she was doing :3 she seems like a not a very good friend. i would just find a friend who would treat ya better