Close your eyes... take slow deep focused breaths. And ask the Holy Spirit of God to come to you.
Also... checked out your gallery for 2 seconds and why do I pick up "confused and hurt soul."
And Adam Lambert did not die for you on the cross to take away your sins.
And due to the hostility towards Christianity in this PC world... let me stress that this is not an attempt to force my religion down your throat. But a suggestion you may or may not choose to do. Its just something that worked for me. You have choices.
I checked the rest of the thread, and saw your reply with more info. It helps to cry, it's a release, that unless done will be replaced by painful brooding over it. When you have bad moments in your life, you think that it'll eventually end, and you'll have your good ones again. And you know you tend to have more highs than lows, or the good parts are worth it.
So you have friends that would hate to see you go, and you have someone to love, but you want to end your life because you don't see the "point" to it anymore.... Tell the story to one of your friends and ask them to slap you for me.
First of all, if there's ever a point where you're seriously about to commit suicide, please call 1-800-273-8255. This is the American Suicide Prevention Hotline, which is staffed by people who are trained in this sort of thing and can probably provide better help than I can.
But please, don't think that having these feelings makes you some kind of freak. You are completely normal, just like the rest of us. If you really feel this way, then the best advice that I can offer is to go and find somebody to talk to. Yes, it'll be awkward, but if you don't get help then these feelings won't go away.
And do remember that there are people who care about you. Even if the number of people who love you is only two, those two people live in a better world simply because you're there for them every single day. Don't think that you're alone in the world by any means.
GGordonSFeatured By OwnerDec 10, 2012Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thats a lie. There is a point to life.
Feelings aren't facts. You're only 17, ya know. Times are going to be hectic.
So think about your friends and this person you love, be patient, thats the best thing to do.
Don't let thoughts and feelings rule you, you can stand up to that if you choose.
You're a writer, you know how to invent stories. Some can be pretty convincing. Thoughts will invent some really miserable stories if you let them, so why listen to those stories that are stupid and make you feel bad? Make a good story based on the truth that, yea, life is rough, but IT IS WORTH IT, and so are you.
Everything really. Its just I've been suffering from depression for a while now, and whenever I get into fights with people or get upset, I bottle up my emotions and then it'll get so bad that I'll take it out on my good friends.
My cousin committed suicide, and one of my best friends committed an accidental suicide (long story) and really, I'm just not up to in anymore.
My aunt blames ME for my cousin's death, even though it was clearly HER fault.
I hate what people say to me all the time. They make fun of me as "jokes" but the jokes really hurt me. I can't take it anymore!
(if you like it, you can watch the other parts in the related videos column; and fair warning the second song on part 2 has some really dirty images, so if you're offended by blow up dolls, just skip right to part 3).
Remember that you're a wonderful person, who's just going through a tough time right now, but just hold on, and one day you'll be a superstar.
Oh and also check my signature below and click the link next to You are Beautiful.