Close your eyes... take slow deep focused breaths. And ask the Holy Spirit of God to come to you.
Also... checked out your gallery for 2 seconds and why do I pick up "confused and hurt soul."
And Adam Lambert did not die for you on the cross to take away your sins.
And due to the hostility towards Christianity in this PC world... let me stress that this is not an attempt to force my religion down your throat. But a suggestion you may or may not choose to do. Its just something that worked for me. You have choices.
I checked the rest of the thread, and saw your reply with more info. It helps to cry, it's a release, that unless done will be replaced by painful brooding over it. When you have bad moments in your life, you think that it'll eventually end, and you'll have your good ones again. And you know you tend to have more highs than lows, or the good parts are worth it.
So you have friends that would hate to see you go, and you have someone to love, but you want to end your life because you don't see the "point" to it anymore.... Tell the story to one of your friends and ask them to slap you for me.
I know that I have some friends at school who care about me and they would be devastated (I think) if I were to leave in such a manor.
I also know that there are people out there, who wouldn't give two shits about what I do. I hate life, and I don't want to deal with it anymore.
I've broken down three times tonight and I really don't want to have to deal with it anymore.
I mean, there is someone out there that I love, but... *trails off*
Anyways...does anyone know what I should do?