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feeling lonely, helpless...

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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 10, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
The Problem: Everytime when Iīm in school with wy friend, I feel good, but when they are ill,... I feel really bad, i feel like donīt fit in! I alway have the feeling that Iīm lonely, the same at home!
I fell all the time lonely...
I donīt have many frinds,
And I donīt have much confidence, even if it looks for other people as I have much!
Yah, maybe Iīm sometimes crayzy, but when other people say that, I feel hurt!
And I still donīt feel pretty! My friend alwys say that im ugly... One time whwn I was in school, there were some some boys.. one sayed: "Hey, are you joking, sheīs so ugly" (I know that he was saying it to me, becouse they always looked into my way... and no other girl was there)
And Iīm quite short, Iīm just 155 cm tall...
I always feel so small...
Sometimes when I walk around The people staring at me, without a reason, loughing at me, when I walk next to them...
Some people find itīs funny, if they put their foot to mine, so that Iīm falling!

What is wrong with me?!
I hate myself, iīm ugly, I have a hateable personality, I donīt have many friends....

Do you have some tipps for me, plese... I canīt take so much feelings.
I feel myself every day more breaking...

please help!
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BackmanArts Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Like many other have said before me, you're only 16, it gets a whole lot better once you graduate. Learn to love you for who you are, and it gets much easier for people to love you back. People will notice if someone hates themselves, and they'll feed on that emotion. I know it might be difficult, I was for the most part in your position in middle school. I shut myself out from the outside, mostly sitting infront of my computer playing games. I didn't have many friends to talk to and I felt kinda lonely at times. I was for example bullied for my real name, which is shared with the name of a mushroom. (I know, silly isnt it?) But once you find friends you love and they love you back, you forget all the things in the past. It seems like you worry too much about how people act in your presence. Most of the time the laughter might be meant for something else, like a conversation or a joke someone just told the said group or person and you just happen to pass by, thinking that the laughter was pointed at you. It's not like that at all. Just ignore it, and don't worry about it. People with little confidence tend to find behaviour or conversations in their presence directed to themselves when they're clearly not.

And from what I can tell from your ID, you're not ugly at all. You're very cute. Don't believe what those boys say about you, or if those comments were directed to you at all. People who make fun of others usually have their own problems to deal with, and by making fun of others, they ease the pain for the moment. But it won't work in the long run. Once guys gets older, they see that beauty don't only lie in looks alone. The boys your age just don't know it yet.

Try talking to someone about your problems. If by some reason you can't talk about it to your friends, talk to your parents, or any siblings you might have. It might feel awkward or embarrassing, but its going to feel so much better once you talk about it.

Once again, youre only 16. you have a whole life ahead of you, most people hated their childhood, but they stood strong and held it together. Just learn to love yourself for who you are and ignore anyone who tells you otherwise. I hope I made some sense in my text, I wish you the best of luck! :)
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thatīs a long text O.O

Thanks for giving me your time, yah I think you are right, Iīll try the best in my future C:
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BackmanArts Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Student Digital Artist
youre very welcome :)
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
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signsofortune Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012
Dear IokoThePanda,

You do not have a hateable personality; what you are is normal, and nice. Unfortunately there are some mean people at school, who treat nice people badly. Those mean people are louder than the nice people, but that does not mean they are more common. Unfortunately, meanness cannot defeat meanness. But niceness can. Go out of your way to be nice to other people, and you may be pleasantly suprised to discover two things: 1. some of the mean people will stop being mean. 2. alot of people who said nothing before will open up to you and be nice to you.

This advice I am giving is very difficult advice to take, but it is also advice that if taken, could change your whole school experience, as well as many other people's.

I'm sorry you have to go through what you are going through in the first place; I went through the same thing. Be assured that after I graduated, I never had to experience anything like that again, but I still have nightmares about it.

However, as time goes by the nightmares are becoming fewer and fewer.

Hang in there!

SoF
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
oh, Iīll try my best with your advise :D
thank you for spending your time <3
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Shintai88 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Making Internet friends help, Since people can feel a bond with a person they are talking to. And trust can be developed.
However though I have not been in your situation. I can say alot of people don't actually care what a person looks like. Atleast not until they start talking to others who decide to ask.

Try going out by yourself to events that no one you know goes to. And try and see if you can meet some new people. Unfortunately school. is a place where you have some tribal bullcrap going on. So even if someone wants to be friends with you, they won't because they don't want to risk their rep or whatever.

Going out and meeting new people, Starting a conversation with the person in the queue with you, is a way to build up self confidence, You might even end up being friends, who then meet up to go to events together.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yah, a really good tipp C:
but in my town arenīt much eventīs...
And I donīt like going out alone, the I feel a little bit lost... :S
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Shintai88 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Ahhhh i see. I used to be like that aswell not wanting to go out. Was pretty much a recluse for 5 years but not because I was afriad of being alone but more like I had nothing to do out there. Till I decided I need to change my life. Guess the difference is I was in a city, So I could find events to go to.

Don't feel down cause your short, I find short to be attractive for women. Since they are the right height for hugs.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
lol, yah, I think Iīm looking for something I can go to C:
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Shintai88 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Student Digital Artist
^_^ Good luck. I hope you can find something to go to.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yah, thanks C:
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Shintai88 Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Your welcome.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
C:
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LadyData Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
How can you call this guy a friend if he's always putting you down? If he was really your friend he would treat you with respect and accept you for who you are. You should end your friendship with him because he's not worth it.

Perhaps you can befriend someone who is exactly the same size as you or meet someone that shares the same interests/hobbies like you in school clubs or youth groups. If not then you can befriend people on the Internet. I can be your friend if you like :D

I can relate with you because I also don't have much friends in real life and I've gotten most of my support from my father and friends on Deviant Art.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yah, maybe C:


lol, the same size... so I have to meet someone who is 11?! xīD

yah, we can be friends C:
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LadyData Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Wait you mean your height is 11 :confused:? I converted your size 155 cm into ft and inches and it's 5"1.

I'll watch you and add you to my friend list :hug:
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
ähhh, no, tha age is 11 xīD

Yah <3
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LadyData Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Well it's optional to befriend people your age or a little older or younger. In my situation I tend to get a long with people who are either older than me or younger than me.
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FlyingRam Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012
You may consider socializing more with a "controlled' group of people like say at meetings church or some other social gatherings with people your family knows well. This can help build your self esteem some and you don't have to worry too much about being picked on since they know you or someone close to you. It's less risky than just trying to socialize with strangers who have no incentive to be nice if you already are having esteem issues.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yah, we even donīt go to the church, we donīt belive in god....
but thanks <3
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FlyingRam Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
It doesn't have to be a religious group, do they have anything like the YMCA in Germany?
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
whatīs YMCA?
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FlyingRam Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012
It's a community outreach group, they do tons of programs and services. It can be stuff from swimming lessons, counseling, shelters for homeless people, or sporting activities.

But key point, finding a low stress place to socialize is important if you want to build self esteem or get comfortable dealing with others.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yah, we donīt have something like that...

but yah, thanks a lot C:
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KUHwin Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Student
Your friends tell you you're ugly? Guuurl not only is that not true, they don't really sound like good friends. :(
I know how you feel. I suffer though self confidence problems as well. I know if feels real, but you have to realize your better than how you feel, if that makes sense. Don't go by other people's standard. Like what you like, dress how you want to dress, and be happy with it! You only have one life, enjoy it how you want to. (:

My biggest advice to you is to not worry about those old friends of yours. Promise you that there's some wonderful people out there that'll make you feel better about yourself. Also, if you feel like you are at the point of breaking there's NO SHAME in talking to someone. Talk to your school councilor who is there to listen and help you out. Professional help is going to be the best kind of help, especially if these feelings are impacting your every day life.

Hope you feel better soon!
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yah, thanks :)
but to talk with someone obout my problems is really difficult to me :s
and I donīt know why....


We donīt have a school concilor...
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KUHwin Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Student
No I completely get it. It is hard! It helps though if you find someone you really trust to confide in.

Are you sure? Usually schools will have some sort of program like that. If not, ask your nurse and see who she can direct you to!
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
we donīt have a nurse O.O

if youīre ill, you go home, and if something happen, the studentīs who have to do this two weeks, come...
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KUHwin Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Student
Really? .____.

Then talk to your main doctor or one that you visit when you're sick. There has to be someone who can direct you to the proper care! :c
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yah, Iīm not often ill, but, okay, thank you :3
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KUHwin Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Student
(: I wish you nothing but the best. Feel better <3
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
haha, thank you :hug:
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yuuuma Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Let me tell you somethin' See I felt exactly like you when I was a Freshie ( I'm a Junior in high school now lol) and I don't have many friends at all. In fact I lost a few. This is because I stopped bothering to associate myself with people who make fun of me or think ill of me. I continued to make friends in highschool as I had no friends that were directly in my grade. So I had no friends in any of my classes.
All in all now I feel like IM better off alone until someone wants to talk to me. It sounds rather lonely but you can think that if you are physically alone you are not always alone in spirit ( sounds cheesy sorry ;u; ) We all share the same sky right?

You should not hang out with people that don't like you, or insult you. Even if its supposedly fun-loving (haha no....) If it gets to you than its not. Just walk away. It's always best to ignore what people say because they don't know at east a third of what you're really like on the inside. I find you to be a good person, don't associate yourself with negativity because it can result to the worst. ( Don't believe it for a second either)

Do what you think is right. Even if you have to be alone for a little I think its better than being insulted.

Listen to music and draw!! I find it the best way to take out any emotion whether it be good or bad. Find something you can enjoy to make you happy when you're sad as well.

When "friends" insult you it shows they have little interest in what you're really about. Hope for the better and get away from Negative environments.
ヾ(´・ω・`)
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
haha :3
yah, thank you for the tipp *^*

I hope you have many friends now ^^
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yuuuma Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Student Digital Artist
You're welcome :heart:

Huhu I do, I have many great friends online~ Online or not friends are friends and that's important.~
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
do you want to be my friend?
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yuuuma Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Student Digital Artist
Of course! (*ノ▽ノ)
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yay :iconslowhugplz:
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SargKracken Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012
I'll be your friend :)
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
yay~
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SargKracken Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012
^.^
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 13, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
:3
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
lol, Iīve sayd, that I donīt have many friends... but that isnīt thrue...
I have a lt of really good friends here! C:
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kyupol Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
Some advice... feel free to take it or leave it.

1) Learn to stop caring about what other people think about you, that youre "weird", etc. Well I tell you something. If you are different it means you are unique. Nothing to get depressed about.

2) I dunno what it is. But I sense you have a higher spiritual calling. Seek it and you will find it.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
1) jah, Iīll try to do my best :)

2) What do you mean?! =A=

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kyupol Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012
higher spiritual calling? A good indicator of that is having problems with bullies and/or most people generally resenting you.

Cuz that is a sign your aura is different from the average person on this earth. Meditate. Try it.
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 12, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh, yah, I read something about it^^

i tryed to mediate one time, but I donīt have the time now...

Maybe I just take the time :3
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Robie-Chan Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Student General Artist
Is there anything I can do to help =( I am your friend so you are really not alone and I am sure that people will comment on this and this will show that they are your friends also =).
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IokoThePanda Featured By Owner Dec 11, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Yah, right, you are my friend :D
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