Sounds like a really terrible situation, I have no words really, other than, I truly deeply wish that everything turns out good in the end. You never know, things might look ugly now, but in the end (as long as you don't give up), things might turn around. I would still agree with the rest that tell you to contact your parents for help, it sounds horrible to ask them for money now when you grandpa is dying and I'm sure your family is very emotional etc, but they can't simply leave you like that, you are in a difficult situation and even if it's a lot to ask, they could help you, even to win some time until you can stand on your feet again, finding a job etc. Best of luck my friend!!
Thanks and yes in the end I am very thankful for the fact me and my family are as close as we are, because I know they will help me if I really need it. I just need to personally get over myself and actually ask.
I know things will turn around eventually its just a lot of weight on me right now and I was feeling it especially when I posted this (I had just gotten 3 jobs deny me almost right in a row, it hurt)
If your current family situation makes it uncomfortable for you to ask for money then how about a trade off? You mentioned your grandfather has cancer (very sorry to hear that). Could he use some help around the house maybe? Going through that is difficult so it couldn't hurt for him to have an extra set of hands around and it would give you a place to stay while you sort things out and get back on your feet. I'm pretty sure there are exceptions for having to stay in state when it involves having to take care of sick relatives. You can't just run off and do it without notifying anyone but you could always contact the proper authorities and ask. Wishing you the best of luck. The shit storm you got for what happened is ridiculously out of proportion.
When I go into court ill have to ask about that, because I do know depending on your probation or something you can move out of state and be required to check in through mail or something (Or maybe what I read was complete bull lol)
That would be a win win.
And dont worry, I figured It would hapen eventually because you know, how dare I ask for help on a help forum?
Own up to your mistake and do the best you can. I've managed to screw myself up legally yet I'm still here edging by day to day. How about for starters you stop panicking, and stop making every little thing into a fucking tragedy.
Take control of your life and stop blaming it on other things. Your choices, your actions, stop deflecting the blame, that's why you aren't doing well. Figure out what you need to do, and do it. It really is that simple. No you won't have everything and no it won't be easy, but deal with it.
And strippers make ok money depending on the day and how well they do their job, but they still have to work hard and can't have the attitude that you have to do it. Considering that some of my friends did that as a living, I think it's really close minded of you to say that like it's a last ditch resort. At least my friends who stripped had control over their lives and didn't bitch half as much as you do about how their life has fallen to shit, and fuck some of them would make more than I would in a month in a week. They at least were doing something instead of complaining about it, and taking it far more gracefully and with a lot more courage and conviction. Maybe you should try that.
Another thing. Things get hard sometimes ok? You obviously know that, and just because you know what you have to do doesnt always mean its so easy to do. This is the HELP LIFE forum, so what the fuck are you doing on here if all you want to TRY and insult people?
Right now I know legally what I HAVE to do, but I can not at this moment do it, I do not have the amount of money I need because I do not have a job right now, I do not have a job right now because the legal issues I was going through (that is literally why I got fired and I think thats illegal but probably not) It is HARD to find a job. I apply to everything, I go out of my way to clean houses, babysit, mow yards, fucking teenager shit you know? But any money is good money.
Ive never giving up or blamed others where blame wasnt due. I did not buy that alcohol and I did not deserve what happened to me, but it did, and its over, and I couldve stopped it if I had stepped back and looked at the situation. Im sure if I had actually tried I wouldve noticed the kids were underaged, but I didnt and thats MY FAULT.
My attitude in general is just fine, I work hard, I am a nice person, easy to get along with, and I put my whole soul into things.
and making everything a fucking tragedy? NO im telling the god damn truth about my situation, so if it seems like a tragedy to you then I guess it is. About me almost dying, that is a fucking truth. Do you have any severe allergies that send you into shock within a few minutes? If not I need you to stfu and read about. It is damn scary.
Your advice will always hold true no matter what situation because of course you wont move anywhere if you cant accept whats happen and move on.
Of course you wont get anywhere if your constant attitude is "O woe is me"
What im angry is that you assume because I chose to finally vent a bit and look for outside opinions that I exhibit those qualities, and I can tell you now, I do not. Things are tough, I am stressed, and I rarely ever let things off my chest or talk to people and that adds to the stress and that is my fault, but dear lord let me have my one time to let that stress out and be upset.
Being upset is human, because of things said like what you said I keep it in because that's how I view it now. Complaining. Its really not though.
What Im saying is you dont know everything I have done and continue to do, do not judge me by what I vented. I obviously dont have the time to go into excruciating detail about every little thing im doing.