I can't say that I've been through as many relationships as you have, but I've broken up with one person multiple times. My advice to you: don't focus on relationships right now. Right now, you're feeling bad about what's happened to you, so you don't want to start something with someone new with these feelings bringing you down, because then it will more than likely just ruin the next relationship. Recovering won't be easy, but it's possible. 100%. The main thing is WANTING to move on. If you really don't want to move on, you won't. You'll just keep going back to the same people who made things bad in the 1st place, or you'll stay bitter and never recover, and you probably won't better yourself that way. What I've learned from my experiences: it can't rain forever. Meaning you may feel shitty and down about everything now and you may feel like you'll never find the love you deserve, but you will and when you do when the time is right, you'll look back and see that the bad times are learning experiences. There are going to be people who don't treat you well, and there are going to be times when you just want to give up on it. But, at the end of the day, you need to think about yourself, so keep your head up and just focus on you. Love will follow suit.