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Please help me (kinda long)

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jessieiii Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Sorry for my watchers that will see this, I'd prefer if you didn't read as I don't want you to see me like this.. I am 16, and have an almost 2 year old son. My boyfriend of 3 years just turned 21..
Don't judge too much as it is legal here..
My dad works 3 provinces away from us and is only home every little while and only for a short time..
My mom is a severe schizophrenic who believes that god and satan are the voices and people she sees...
I am atheist, so that makes it even worse to deal with..
My mom can't take care of me, and can't even take care of herself.
So C.A.S got involved and I had to live with my uncle for a bit while I was pregnant and my mom got put in a mental institution.. I hated it there, it was awful and he was cruel so my boyfriends family took me in..
I only stay at home when my dad is there..
And it's been really great staying with them for almost 3 years..
But my boyfriends dad is a complete ass.. He's extremely rude to every single person around him, and then he constantly cries and complains about how no one wants to be around him (he didnt even get invited to his very close relatives wedding because they didn't want him there).
My boyfriend doesn't have a job, and he's tried extremely hard to get one but we live in a town with only 5 small stores and none are hiring, and the only vehicle we have is my dads who only lets us use it for certain things.
My boyfriend is doing correspondence as well a I am.. I have extreme depression, anxiety, o.c.d, and a heck of a lot of other problems.. I am supposed to be on a bunch of meds but my doctor still can't find any that work.. They all make it worse, so I can't go to school.. Even when I tried, I couldn't help but crying and freaking out in class because of extremely bad social anxiety..
My boyfriend's dad is threatening to kick him and us all out, and tehn he does nothing but scream and everything else.. Did I mention he is a drug addict? And I don't just mean a little weed...

We are trying to raise our son a certain way and we only just got him recently,as my boyfriends mom took him away and refused to let us have him.. So, my boyfriend's dad is constantly going against what we say and really making things so much more difficult.. Now my son is constantly stealing our food, screaming and beating on people as well as biting, and a bunch of other things because of the things my boyfriend's dad keeps teaching him. He's really corrupting him and I don't even want my son anywhere near him..

Most will say "just move out then", but what people don't understand is that my boyfriend's dad is my guardian while my dads away..
Meaning if he kicks my boyfriend out, or if my boyfriend tries to get an apartment.. I'm not aloud to be near my boyfriend or my son and will only be able to see my son for like a couple hours a day..
And since that's the case i'd have to either go live with my mom who is an extreme danger to my health, or get taken into another family...

What do I do? How do I deal with this? My doctor just recently told me my depression seemed to be getting better by itself... but now it's all coming back.. I'm sick of living every single day with nothing but screaming, and drugs all around me.. and I'm sick of constantly being told how awful I am and how I'm nothing but a bitch and whatever else... :'(
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Botoru Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
living with your dad might help?
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jessieiii Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
My dad technically lives at home. He works in a camp in a different province on a construction site. He just stays in a small bunker with like 300 different people from around the world so if I was to live with my dad.. it would be living at home alone with my mom.. Which doesn't work as she can be dangerous.
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Greowko Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i was thing my life sucks, but your life is really bad, you do not have your real family, and your boyfriend´s family is dangerous for you and your son...

i can not do anything for you because i am just a person on internet but take this council; do not do nothing stupid, really, that just make worse your situation (for example my family never care for me, i am depressive, they never believe me when i tell them about my problems, i do not have any friend and i do not go to the school... and i am very ill, really) i tried to kill myself two times and had a car accident, that only do worse my situation, my family not care about me anyway and i am just more sick and hurt. so do not try that or some similar (i feel stupid then), and if you can live with other family do that. do the better for you!

the people here just can listen to you (or read hehe), if you tell your problems to other people you will feel a little better and vent of your problems, and receive another point of view or maybe receive help, search help in your city or on your own neighborhood, i do not believe in god or some similar but i find some help in a great guy, he is christian (not catholic) but he is the only person who really help me in my worse moments, so do not be a stupid atheist and try to find help in different type of people.

i hope you feel better soon :)
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jessieiii Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I understand what you mean.. I have attempted to kill myself when I was younger, and I'm glad I never got to do it. Whether my life is really difficult and harsh at times I love my son, my boyfriend, my dad, and my mum and even if my mom isn't like she was, I still have wonderful memories of her before she got really sick..
Thanks for the advice but I am feeling a lot better about the situation as I know that even if they don't always show it, they care a lot about me.
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AsukaKissu Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
That sounds really hard D:
I know your an athiest but I'll be praying for you.
I can't really give any direct advice (I have no experience with this kind of thing haha)

But do you have any close friends that would be willing to house you and your boyfriend until he gets a job?
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jessieiii Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Since I am out of school, I literally have no real life friends at all. Not even one.
Most of them stopped wanting to be around me when I got pregnant since I was only 14 (thats elementary school).
The few I had left didn't like me anymore because I came mature and didn't want to party and couldn't handle how they behaved.
But thank you for praying for me. It means a lot.
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AsukaKissu Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Awh, really D:
sorry to hear that :P
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jessieiii Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
It's alright, I have plenty of online friends that try their best to help me out. :)
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thisismyboat Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
I don't have any direct advice for you, but have you considered going to the police and seeing what social programs are out there for you? Police aren't just there to solve crimes, they're also there to help a community.
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jessieiii Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
What do you mean by social programs?
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