I have thought about that. I'm not lazy. At all. I do things as soon as they need to be done. I'm up before 12PM every day. I clean after myself. I go to lectures. Sorry but I know for a fact I am not lazy. The only thing I can see that she has probably thought about, is that I'm being blunt. Because I've had enough of her, and I have been kind and sensitive, and she still ignores me. I be blunt, she still ignores me. I could do anything and I feel she would still ignore me.
If she won't talk or listen you can write her a letter. Tell her things need to change or you will be moving out. Who knows, maybe she is trying to get you to move. But you are giving her a chance to change. If she doesn't than it's on her and you need not feel guilty. Frankly with someone that rude I wouldn't have stayed longer than a week. What they need is a roomie swap and put like people together. That way they can bug each other. By the way, doesn't anyone else complain about the noise of loud music?
THE ONLY PERSON YOU CAN CONTROL/CHANGE IS YOURSELF.
Don't feel guilty that she's such a heinous bitch that she drove you away. You need to do what is best for you, and fuck her. Boo-hoo, she doesn't like that you go to the library to get away from her, she can fucking deal. It sounds like you don't want anything to do with her anyway, so what do you care what she thinks?
Stop taking responsibility for her issues and focus on what you need to do to get your life where you want it. You are paying to go to university for your education, not to be her friend, so do what you need to do to get the most out of it.
I know, but it's just the horrible feelings >_< I guess I just need to stop being a doormat and put myself first. I only care what she thinks because she's a very big hypochondriact and so I fear what she might say and then I'm cornered by her parents and friends.
I fell out with my first flatmate over (in hindsight) silly things and we were both (in hindsight) fairly silly about the whole business. We basically split the flat in half and stayed to our own halves. I had the toilet in my half. My flatmate was attempting to dispose of bodily waste without access to the toilet. This state of affairs carried on for some months with both of us trying to ignore the various problems it was causing. But by then the bodily waste thing had gotten way out of control.
Obviously it didn't work. In hindsight I'm sure we could have found a way to talk to each other and compromise and it would all have been much easier.
I'm not telling you what to do. Just think about what is the sensible thing to do and think how silly you will feel in several years time if you don't do the sensible thing.
I don't feel like I'm being petty, I feel like I'm showing her what she's doing to me. Not all the time because I chicken out but something as simple as noise control. She blasts the TV and her music until silly hours, yet she knows she plays it loud, I ask her to turn it down, she does by 1 bar... so I left the tv on loud in the morning, whilst she was sleeping (we had to be up for a lecture anyway) and she came in and moaned at me, so I said "that's how it is for me. It's really loud and my room is closer" but she still didn't click and on the same night, blasted music until 2am :/ doesn't really make sense, she doesn't listen or understand that she's making any problem.
I don't think I'd feel silly in the future about the way she treats me, but I might do about how I've handeled it... still being walked over and not standing up for myself enough.