Its alright, as long as you don't enjoy seeing blood of your own too often, you'll be alright. No, its not normal, but niether is me having paranormal experiences all my life and no one in my family has themselves. Your just normal in your own "jacked up" ways(or "bucked up" in brony terms)
Solum-IpsumFeatured By OwnerNov 14, 2012Hobbyist General Artist
Don't worry, you're just a fucked up psychotic bitch. As long as you don't self harm.
[link] I wrote an anthem to this site. Used to be my home for two years. I started the MLP gore thread on the /fur/ board. I'm currently writing an MLP horror fic. They also have a discussion board to tell about their social issues involving their fucked up shit.
Where do you think horror movies and death metal and goregrind, etc. come from?
Many, many people (myself included!) feel the same way and enjoy the same things. Just keep it all hypothetical. Enjoy movies, thoughts, etc.... don't act on them. If you ever get to the 'I want to dice something/someone up to SEE IT BLEED' stage -- then get help immediately. Don't dice people up, please. But hypothetically? Just enjoy what you enjoy.
On the self harm -- it depends on your reasons. If it's really only about the blood and stuff, and I feel ya on that, just make sure you do it safely. Self harm is no big deal if you use sterile equipment (no rusty knives; just use stuff that's clean and sterilised right before and right after every use) and are very careful about how much you do and how deep you go and where you cut. Always keep a first aid kit on hand and be ready to seek help if you're not careful enough.
However, if the self harm is with an intent to hurt yourself for emotional reasons, or is due to suicidal thoughts, please seek help.
You like what you like, you are who you are. Enjoy it as long as you're not putting yourself or anyone in danger.
NOTE: I am not a medical professional of any sort, obviously.
OcarinaOfChaos56Featured By OwnerNov 13, 2012Student Digital Artist
Good point thanks so much for the advice! And don't worry, I'm not going to dice anyone up x3 and about the knives, I usually just use regular kitchen steak knives and make a little slit here and there on my shoulder. It doesn't really hurt that much, I just like seeing the blood flow down my arm. Wow, that sounds creepy. But it is getting far more serious, I'm afraid ;-;
I would like to reiterate, for you to keep in mind, I am not a medical professional. None of my advice should be taken seriously. Go talk to a therapist or psychiatrist. I am just some crazy, anonymous person on the internet who you can't trust to have your best interests in mind.
That said, if you are going to self harm, I keep these rules in mind for myself to stay safe: sterilise everything (wound+blade), limit frequency (max 3 times per night; max 10 times per month), limit depth (don't cut deeply).
The thoughts and interests are fine, but self harm can be really dangerous. Please keep that in mind. It's not something to be done lightly.
...Honestly, I get kind of excited when my nose bleeds or I see I've cut myself too. I can't explain it - especially considering just how much my nose bleeds or how sore it makes my nose afterwards. I think maybe it's like "Hey, look at my terrible wound that I have survived! Isn't that exciting?!", I don't know.
Getting desires to hurt yourself or others isn't really a good thing, though. I don't really have any helpful advice for that other than what someone already said about seeing a therapist or whatever.
Not really. I think a lot of people (including me) have that kind of fascination, but it sn't normal or healthy to feel to the point of damaging yourself. It isn't normal (as much as it seems) to damage yourself, (self experience) it turns into an obsession and then you will regret it.
It's who you are. It doesn't make you special though. Just accept it and move on. My weakness is a girl that will bake me brownies and then stab me in the kitchen before licking it up and then bandaging me up. And the person I'm in love with has a thing for zombies and blood.
No judgements, but also, don't think it makes you special.