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~Dracula-Alucard-Vamp:iconDracula-Alucard-Vamp: May 4, 2008, 6:15:14 PM
Okay, alot has happened to me in the past while, and I have to get it out, I am not asking for advice just someone to hear it all, okay, I was, and still am in love with a girl, she is my best friend, I have known her a short time only, and she didn't feel the same, okay, fair enough, and she was nice about it too! But, it hurt unimaginably! I am still not over that, I don't think I ever will be, actually, and that hurts, and on that note, my next problem! I cut, I have for a while, thought I could stop when I wanted and yada yada, but, I can't!! I tried, I just can't! I don't know how to anymore!! I just don't know what to do on that matter at all!! Okay, for all those who made it this far, thanks, and, sorry too! My next problem, bullying, I have an awful problem, no-one bar my friends like me! I wish this were not so, but it is, I hate it!! I just don't know what to do! AND I AM SUPPOSED TO BE SMART!! Okay, sorry, but I have one more problem, not related to me as such, but my friend, but it hurts me too!! My friend, who wasn't of the best mind set to begin with, is thinking of killing herself!!! And worse, it is all my fault!! Since I cut, I got her help, and I was trying to put it off, but I knew the cut would be deeper if I did, but, I was hoping to stop! YES I DO KNOW I SHOULD GET PROFESSIONAL HELP!! But, she had a plan, and she said I should cut so that the cut is not that deep, but I knew it was going to be deep, anyway, but, she still thought that I should, so I did, and it was deep, and she was saying how sorry she was, and stuff, and I was trying to calm her, to no avail, and then I passed out over blood loss, for a minute or two, but eh, still! Then, I passed out AGAIN! For a shorter time span, but still! And by that point she was very sad, blaming herself, saying she should have cut me herself, and stuff, and said she should do something it took about 10 minutes or more to figure out, and she just won't be drawn anymore!! Okay, one more problem, I AM A PATHALOGICAL LIAR!!

Sorry it is so long!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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~Bananasplit1:iconBananasplit1: May 4, 2008, 6:20:58 PM
Wow, that was really hard to understand, but I think you need to take control.

You're in charge of what happens in your life, don't let other people rule.
Do what's best for you first, and then help others later.
It sounds cold, but it will be better for you than trying to be nice.

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~shortboy12:iconshortboy12: May 4, 2008, 6:24:33 PM
Well...
Uhm..
WTH!.. I Don't Think I Really Understand.. But I Read The Whole Thing If It Makes You Feel Better

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~Dracula-Alucard-Vamp:iconDracula-Alucard-Vamp: May 4, 2008, 6:25:16 PM
Look, don't want to sound harsh, how the hell can I help myself?? I am already friggin' trying!!

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~Dracula-Alucard-Vamp:iconDracula-Alucard-Vamp: May 4, 2008, 6:25:59 PM
Nah, I don't mind, I just had to get it all out!

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~theforc:icontheforc: May 4, 2008, 6:52:41 PM
Any idea why you cut?

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~Dracula-Alucard-Vamp:iconDracula-Alucard-Vamp: May 4, 2008, 7:05:10 PM
Well, eh, did you read the rest of it??
It is self explanatory!

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~theforc:icontheforc: May 4, 2008, 7:08:06 PM
You said you didn't know why, but I'm wondering if you have any ideas.
I'm a bit numb towards cutting, so it confuses me a bit.

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~Dracula-Alucard-Vamp:iconDracula-Alucard-Vamp: May 4, 2008, 7:09:50 PM
Eh, look, do you mean you don't understand why people do it?

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~theforc:icontheforc: May 4, 2008, 7:16:58 PM
Yeah, I understand the reasons of their pain, but I don't quite understand why. I also don't understand your main reason, or is it just all of those?

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~Dracula-Alucard-Vamp:iconDracula-Alucard-Vamp: May 4, 2008, 7:26:49 PM
All of those, and the reason people do it is scientific!

When you endure pain your body releases a chemical called Endorphin which gives you a feel-good feeling!

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