YOU SHOULDNT REALLY READ THIS COZ ITS LONG AS FK. THIS IS JUST ME RANTING AND NOW I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER AHA...;_;

I have a problem with my dad. He doesn't work and stay home all day except for when he goes out and play ping-pong, buy groceries, put in checks and stuff. He always say he will work if we are in really deep financial problems but that will probably never come true. My mom always defends him and accepts that he doesn't work because he have diabetes. The way me and my sister looks at it, if he really wanted us to live a much more comfortable life, he would work even if just a little. Also, he yells at my mom a lot. He and my sister don't talk and usually they yell at each other if they do talk for more than 1 minute. He doesn't work yet he yells at other people and call them useless for not working. For example, I have a cousin in China who doesn't work and he is in his 20s. He is trumatized while on an internship and after he graduated, he don't leave home most of the time. My dad would say he is useless and weird for being so quiet. 

In addition, he is very selfish. When we were at a vacation, he brought around $10,000 with him and lived from May- July. Me, my mom and sis went and stayed for only one month because both of them had work. So, at the middle of July, my dad went back to NY and left us only with ¥2,000( ~$320) and that was not enough for expenses and for visiting our relatives since we need to invite them to dinner all the time. Lately, he brought 2 phones for himself. One for listening to music and one for wechat or something. He brought earphones for $25 which he bragged for getting it at a deal of $15 but he doesn't use it and play music loudly everywhere. When i sleep(~ 10:30) for school along with my mom n sis for work, he would still be playing it. Sometimes, when I wake up at 5:30 it would still be on. It's very annoying especially since I have to wake up early.

Now lately, he learned to do shit with wechat. His friend sends him porn vids n pics n shit. I am annoyed. He used to take pictures of girls staring at the screen from the tv with his computer hooked up to it. That is fking disgusting and low of him. That piece of shit. I was around 10 when I found porn videos in his closet in China and from then on, i really started to dislike him little by little. My sister hates him as well. She told me that when she was little, my mom told her to get some money from her bag to buy snack and when she did, dad accused her of stealing money. She also used to have a piggy bank where she keeps her coins but after school, all of the money was gone and she knows dad took it since he is the only one in the house. 

I don't know how to deal with his fking crap. I wanted to tell him off about his shit nicely and hinted him to use his fkin $25-but-brought-it-for-$15-awesome-earphone but he doesnt listen. I just told him to stop using one of his phones because the internet is slow and cant load the drama my mom watches after work and he retorted and said he isnt using it. The music was downloaded. (No its not you fker. There is sync n shit going on in the background. U sit here all day u cant turn ur shit off for 1 sec? What about the phone u r using in ur hand? Not the one playing the music? Fk u.) I swear one day hes gonna have his tv, his computer, his tablet, his two phones on at the same time and he wont give a fk about us. 

And...im scared. Im scared about the money for when I go to college in around 2 years. Im shy as well. Im scared he would turn on me someday and call me useless because I cant find a job. ;_; this would fuel my anxiety even more.