My ex is one of my bestfriends, we've been close friends for about 8 years now. We on and off dated for about 6 years. I hate stupid people and he's the dumbest person I've ever met. He's also a huge liar that I can't trust and is often a jerk. Yet, I can't stop being his friend and I love hanging out with him.
I've been spending the past two and a half months dealing with the ridiculously enduring and strong feelings I got for a friend of mine out of absolutely nowhere. Told her around the beginning of it all and she doesn't feel the same way but fuck man, it is so complicated the shit that's happened so far, especially in my own head.
I've been getting so fucking depressed about it recently. Emotions like these are very weird, but they're just frustrating and draining and worrisome when they aren't matched and you have no idea how to solve them. I didn't feel like this about her years before! WHY NOW?! And why can't it just stop already?