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Deviousness `anmari has been spreading her infectious positivity throughout our community for over 6 years. Throughout this time Ana has been at the core of all things devious, passionately developing an eclectic gallery, helping organise devmeets, participating in chat events and also recently completed dedicating her time as a Community Volunteer. We are absolutely delighted to bestow the Deviousness Award for May 2013 to `anmari, congratulations! Read More
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Now, my mother is generally in a bitchy mood. Understandable, seeing as we're broke and it doesn't seem like we're going to come across any money any time soon. Any other time, she's a great parent.
However, the other day everything fucking toppled over on top of me.
The bitch found a handmade pentacle in my room.
For the record, I'm just now really getting into Paganism. The only reason I can even really call myself a Pagan is because I'm a staunch animist(always have been) and I have an undying adoration for anything occult. Again, I always have.
Another fun note is, I have weird stuff all over my room. I have a broomstick that I made. A little brass cauldron that I keep change in. A crystal ball. An ankh rosary. With all this weird shit that she hasn't a problem with, she flipped the fuck out over me having made a pentacle out of jewelry wire.
I attempted to explain to her the history of the symbol(You know, like how it started out as a Christian icon which was beat by the cross when the church was trying to select their logo), but no. No matter what I told her, she cut me off, smacked me in the face and told me that I was a devil-worshiping lesbian and that I'd never have any friends.
Also, that no boy would ever want me, that I was going to Hell, that I would never have a good job and that I'm stupid, uneducated and I never read a book in my life.
This is the woman who quoted Dante's Inferno and thought it was the Bible.
Over the past couple days, she's been stressing that only Christians are good people, anybody that isn't a Christian is miserable and all Christians are perfectly happy( Mom, you're a Christian and you hate your life, and your friend Tanya is a damn Creationist and weighs five hundred and twenty pounds and makes her daughter do her work for her because she's too depressed to move. You call that happy?), all of my Dad's problems are because he's a Godless heathen(He's agnostic), and that I should be enrolled in the military because nobody wants to give me a scholarship. Also, if I don't wanna go to the military, I'll end up in a brothel as a prostitute because I have no morals.
She's said all of this with absolute certainty, and it disgusts me that a woman who has never even picked up a Bible spews all this rotten bullshit at her own daughter.
The worst part of it is, I'm scared to go back to school because I know I'm going to be harassed for my beliefs, and I don't even have a parent to back me up when I come home crying.
tl;dr I really shoulda gone to Help with Life, but fuck it.